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Sunday, 09 December 2007

  • I know it's been a while I have been really busy with school and work and just life in general.  Anyways, I had forgotten my password on here and just reset it today, so I decided to post something.  So here ya go.

    Have you ever sat back and just listened to everything around or even just looked at everything around you? Well, I just slowed down recently after stressing so much about whether school was gonna work out or not, whether I was gonna make the friends I needed to keep my life together. I had so many doubts and worries about moving to this area. I was literally driving myself insane worrying so much about the move. I moved leaving my home behind, my family and friends, everything I knew was there. I struggled so bad with my faith with every road bump God threw at me. My faith faded so much through the first 6 months of my life here, but God has given so much. I started up at college out here and spent about 2 or 3 weeks to myself out there not really being social at all. A couple of weeks into the semester I went down to the ping-pong table and got in line to play. This is where I met a majority of my friends out at the college, yes by playing ping-pong, lol. Driving home from school one day I see someone playing tennis at the park so I pull in to see who it is, turns out it was some guys I met at the ping-pong table, Vic and Zach. These guys are who I partially blame for getting my life back on track. God is the main one responsible. He has done so much for me since I moved here from giving me friends to a great start on school. Isn't He great? I mean He sent His son Jesus Christ to die on the cross for our sins, sins that many might never forgive of a person, all this just to save us a place for eternal life with Him in Heaven. Everyone stumbles now and then; I am so excited that I got back up though. God IS DEFINATELY my 1. I thank Him every day for each day he has given me even for the bad days that he throws in to see if I can handle them. I am so happy to see that my college is actually working out and I than Him for that. I can actually see the plan take form, and I'm beginning to see a little light at the end of the tunnel.

    Is this, what I call "plan", that I'm pursuing what He has in store for me? I have no clue and that's the way I like it. One verse I keep looking at is Jeremiah 29:11; "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." What I take out of this is God knows what's going on in my life, and that I don't need to worry because His plans will prosper me and will not harm me, they might have a few curves, maybe a couple nails in the road, but His plans for me will not harm me. I trust God has my life under control and so far, He has done so much. One might sit here dreaming of having that new game system, or a new car, while another gets a new car then complains about the color, or complains about getting a playstation when they were really wanting an XBOX360. Well, I sat back the other day and just took a look at everything around me, and thought about some of the things I have that other kids might only dream of having. I have gone on a couple of mission trips with the Baptist Student Ministry of NTCC and the last mission trip really got to me. We went out of town to partially redo a woman's house. This woman was a single mother of seven children; yes I did say seven children. Two are in college while the rest are still in high school and middle school; one in high school is handicapped. That Friday morning we pulled up and it was like the T.V. show Extreme Home Makeover or something. She was leaving for work, turned around and saw all of the trucks and trailers loaded up with tools and supplies coming around the corner and just broke down in tears when she saw us pull in. We tore the siding off of this house, replaced insulation, put up brand new siding, and a couple other things. The most amazing thing about this mission trip from my perspective was the different reactions on the family's faces. It's trips like these that make you appreciate your life so much more, and just makes you want to do it again and again and again. God is good.

Sunday, 21 January 2007

  • Hey everyone...it has been a long time and I just need to get some stuff off my mind. When I was in 8th grade I met a new friend by the name of Josh, he and I both became pretty cool friends.  We played tennis together until I was in 11th grade.  He went his way in his life and we didn't get the chance to talk as much and I graduated high school and we talked even less.  Well, when I woke up this morning I did my normal thing of checking myspace, facerbook, and e-mail.  I checked my facebook first and didn't get passed that.  I looked in my facebook and saw a note from a friend, a brother of my tennis family...he wrote in that note saying that Josh took his own life last night...............................................I don't know what to think what to do, don't know who to talk to so I got on here, so far it's helping.  Josh and I had so many good times, not only did we just play on the same team, we were doubles partners for a while. I loved Josh just like a brother, he got into some stuff and I didn't like it, but I didn't give up and neither did he, at least i thought....I wish I could be there, I wish I could have been there, I wish I could have said something, I wish I could have stopped him, I wish I could even be there with my friends. I hate the fact that I moved off, and I hate the fact that I can't make it back for my friends and his family.  I don't know what to do. This is not the first time I have had a loss of a friend, but this is the first time I have suffered from the loss of a close friend, the loss of a brother, the loss of part of my family. It is so hard to go around acting like everything is okay, in fact it's impossible. I just wanted to jump in the car and leave even if I didn't have the money to make it home.  Sorry about the rambling, but if anyone reads this would you please keep my friend's family in your prayers and all his friend's in your prayers as well.  ---------Matt---------

Thursday, 14 December 2006

  • Hey everyone!  I just thought I would get on here and wish all of you that are still check this thing Happy Holidays.  Everyone be safe and don't have too much fun!!

Saturday, 17 June 2006

  • Hey!!  Sorry about all of these itty bitty messages I have been leaving on here.  I am leaving this message on here because I need some help, not so much someone to talk to help, but I need prayer.  I don't usually ask for prayer for myself, but I do need it.  I just made this move and there are a lot of things that go on here that could lead me on the wrong path.  I have already been pulled into some wrong directions, and that is why I am trying to fix that now.  I met this chick up here and she is awesome.  We have hitting up the town for the past like 4 nights now til like 2 or 3 in the morning.  Yea it's crazy, I hardly ever did that where I used to live.  She is pretty kewl though.  She told me the other night that she thinks that I am a great guy and that she hopes I don't change for anybody, that made me feel so good and made me realize that I really need to watch myself in what I do and who I hang out with.  It is gonna be tough, but I know that God will get me through it, and it will all work out better than I might even think.  I am sorry I haven't been able to get on here as much as I like, I have been working at a gas station and am debating on whether to take a job at the Chevrolet dealership.  It is so crazy, they want to give me the job, but also want me to commit to their hours which makes this decision tough because I want to start college in the fall, and this job would mean taking night classes.  I don't know what to do.  Anyways y'all know a little more about what's going on with me and now I am going to bed.  Luv Y'all!!  God Bless!!  -----Matt-----

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  • I'm 6'0", have brown hair, blue eyes, I am a growing Christian and i love playing tennis and ummm...I am going to college in Mount Pleasant, TX at NTCC about to graduate with my associates and move on to bigger and better things, finally...hahaha. I have met some of the best friends I could ever ask for up here in Mount Pleasant. Things here started up kinda rough, but have gotten a whole lot better. I am really big into music now...I play guitar, sing and I'm learning piano all at the same time, lol. Right now I'm leading worship at a friend's Church. This friend is the one who helped me find the right path and get down it and I just don't know where I would be if I hadn't met him. He is now a youth minister and this is the best way I could think to repay him for helping me out in the ways he did. God has given me a gift, just as he has done each and every other person in this world, but I finally found mine and realized what it was and how to use it. In January I plan to move to Tyle

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